happy holidays!
feel like it’s all too much. the ground has fallen away beneath your feet and it happened when you were up in the clouds, happily ignoring life? that’s how i’ve felt the past few weeks. i have been swept away, really. at the same time i have been feeling very isolated from my people. i’ve fallen into a circle of three and have kept my head down and have pretended like it’s ok to keep on like this.
my life has been in a sort of blissful turmoil. is that possible? this bliss has been unreal. i haven’ felt it in so long i had forgotten. i became someone i’m not and it feels like i am returning. but getting there has been a whirlwind. all of this crazy change has been delightful but i am not grounded. it feels like i am just being carried on this sweet breeze of newness and sweetness. there is no direction but forward and i have no idea if i will drop or continue to blow on. as many would say, “just roll with it”. for the most part i am. but sometimes it all just feels bigger than myself.
in a blissful stupor. not expecting it to end any time soon. that’s just fine with me.
i don’t know what it is about this time of year. usually i am a spring and summer kid. when this season begins, i feel somewhat sad. maybe it’s the end of the sunny long days. but then again, i do enjoy the fall colored leaves, and the warm breezes that push the ever changing clouds across the the sky. however, i am not a fan of the dark days at 5pm.
i have been on quite a journey the last few months. it has been pretty amazing actually. i’ve begun to understand my own power to create my life the way i envision. that’s some powerful stuff. i continue to learn, grow and observe. there will always be challenges. i made a choice to be committed to myself. if i can stay true to that then there really isn’t anything i can’t face.
led zeppelin. hands down.
seriously that’s all you could come up with? sigh. 36D.
while cleaning up my computer i found this movie of my kid. the quality is not that great, but it makes me laugh. hard.
i am fascinated by sound. all kinds of sound, not just musical. i wonder how many of us ever really stop to listen.
try it. try it now.
just stop and listen.
all i wanted was a family and i got a lifetime movie instead.